I'm tired

I'm tired of fighting over the stupidest things. I'm tired of not being able to let things go. I'm tired of feeling down and mostly I'm tired of not knowing what I want to do with my life:( I want to find the one thing in life that makes me the happiest. But I honestly have no idea where to start looking...maybe it will just surprise attack me one day. That might be cool. I mean I'm extremely happy with Chris. and I love him and I will fight to stay with him because he is that important to me. I just need something to go along with him. I mean you have to have some side dishes along with your main dish. I just need some balance. I don't need my whole life to be about him I need some distractions. Not in a bad way I just don't want to spend too much time with him and make him hate me. Our one year anniversary is coming up soon:) so I'm pretty excited about that! But I want a hobby, second job, something to give me something to do besides bug him or just constantly wonder what he's doing, if he's happy or just trying to scare myself(which I am really good at). But whatever Karen should be back soon to watch more Grey's so tata for now.