to you

Dear Seth,
I'm choosing to not use your real name because i don't want everyone to know who you are, there are those who already know who shouldn't, but back to what i want to say. I miss you! I just came to the realization that we can never go back to the way it used to be and if i'm being honest we probably knew that the minute everything went down. I think i was blaming the fact that we don't talk or hang out as much as we used to because i was still little mad at us for what we did and also because i know it makes Miri nervous when we hang out. I'm sorry for that. I want her to know that i would NEVER come between the two of y'all. I just wanted to talk to you like we used to do. back when you were the person i ran to after my first failed attempt.(I understand now why your girlfriend at the time hated me:()I miss staying up with you talking about everything. I appreciate all the times you held me as i cried. I love you. You are one of the greatest friends I could ask for. I'll just have to be ok with only getting to see you occasionally. If Jeremy does not make you his best man for our wedding I will hurt him:p I'm sorry for everything.
Love,
Dada:)